Out of My Control

Last week was “just one of those weeks.” Nothing seemed easy. I have been searching for a flat since before I even arrived here, but it seems the rest of Pretoria is on the hunt for a flat as well. Carine (my future roommate) and I have really liked a couple of flats, but each time we have applied someone beat us to the punch. I have also been looking for a car.  I found one online that seemed just perfect. I was so excited to finally have a bit of freedom …but the car ended up being too good to be true. AND I was close to losing my entire savings in a fraudulent transaction.  I woke up with an intense migraine and rash all over my hand. My phone stopped working, my Internet wouldn’t log on, and the bank put a block on my cards. An added dimension is that it was fundraising week, which meant standing at the stoplights (or they call robots) very early every morning, dressed in funny costumes, asking the stopped cars to donate money, admittedly, an approach not customary to fundraising in the U.S. As if that is not enough, it was the week of our first dress rehearsal which went from 8:00 am Monday morning until 4:30 am Tuesday.  Motivating a team who was exhausted physically and emotionally used up my final emotional reserves. I was spinning out of control. THEN GOD SPOKE. . . AND REMINDED ME THAT HE HAS BEEN, IS STILL AND WILL ALWAYS BE IN CONTROL.

I was desperate for a moment to myself. I opened up my copy of Jesus Calling: Enjoying Peace in His Presence by Sarah Young.  God spoke loud and clear…

Trust Me, and don’t be afraid. Many things feel out of control. Your routines are not running smoothly. You tend to feel more secure when your life is predictable. Let me lead you to the rock that is higher than you and your circumstances. Take refuge in the shelter of My wings, where you are absolutely secure. 

When you are shaken out of your comfortable routines, grip My hand tightly and look for growth opportunities. Instead of bemoaning the loss of your comfort, accept the challenge of something new. I lead you on from glory to glory, making you fit for My kingdom. Say yes to the way I work in your life. Trust Me, and don’t be afraid.

(Isaiah 12:2, Psalm 61:2-4, 2 Corinthians 3:18)

I felt like God was using Young's pen to speak directly to me.  The WORD of God is perfect for teaching and reproach. I humbled myself and asked for His WORD to redeem me and make right a new perspective in me. I praise His name. I am being forced to rely on him in ways I never have before, but I love it. Praise Him for being forever faithful and forever personal.